I'm with you. Friends in my old locale tried to pimp me into the fandom, even giving me DVDs of half of season 1. I watched them and liked the pretty men, but the monster of the week format left me blah, so I never watched the new shows. But some of the most awesome writers on my f-list have been writing knockout fanfic, and then, last night, Mom said, lets watch it. So, like you, I had my heart broken, unexpectedly.