Run in circles, scream and shout

[vanillafluffy]

Yay, shirt is here! And fits. And goes well with leggings. Giving me something to wear as pajamas on the great roadtrip which commences in just a few hours. Woohoo!

I am pep-talking myself that this is going to be fun, fun, fun!---because I have my share of apprehensions and neuroses*. I hate long car trips, especially when I'm not driving. I don't like sharing a room---much less a bed! And then there's the Special Hell of spinster anxiety that weddings provoke, even those of loved ones...and there was a time when I had strong unrequited feelings for Dr Bizarre. (Okay, so that's almost two decades ago and it's waned. It's still another case of me being rejected and the guy marrying someone else. Even if it's a guy I don't want anymore. He's supposed to pine for me, damn it! Look, I SAID it was neurotic, I didn't say it was sensible.) Fun, damn it! Shopping! Swimming! Seeing my old friend marry the mother of his children.

Okay...I need breakfast and I need to finish working on the dress. Yes, I'm still sewing the fucking trim on. And it's puckering. *headdesk* WHY did I think this was a good idea? Remind me? (Yes, I have packed the bustier to wear under it.) At least I'll be well-accessorized. I have a silver clutch, pretty shoes, and a terrific necklace that I made myself.

Yes, I will get pictures.

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* ETA: No email for 72 hours is freaking me out! (Hell, more than 12 hours without email and I'm a wreck!)

Comments

[ang5fam.livejournal.com]

Deep breaths and have fun!
I am sure he still secretly pines for you- that's what I always tell myself about former beau's. "They must be sorry that they let me get away."
Look at it as a mini-vacation. Beats sitting home and will likely make a good story to post.
Bon voyage!!!

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

I am sure he still secretly pines for you-

No, more like, I've finally arrived at where he was all along---"just" good friends.

But yes, vacation with friends and shopping.

[pwcorgigirl.livejournal.com]

Enjoy the good parts and practice deep breathing through the bad ones. And rejoice for your friends getting married.

I am going to love to see photos of you looking beautiful!

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

I *am* happy for them...will do my best not to let my issues creep out. They are, after all, MY issues.

I still haven't tried the dress on, although it IS finally finished. There's some puckering because the top layer with the faux sequins is drapier than the bodice underneath, but it's mostly under my arm/toward the back. And really, who's going to be looking that closely?

I just hope we get to the hotel before 9 and the rest of the party doesn't outvote me. Honestly? I don't care if the TV doesn't get turned on the rest of the trip, as long as I get to see my SPN....

One thing I know---it's a Ramada, not a Winchester-type dive.

[socialhermit.livejournal.com]

I've been reading everything and angst-ing along with you, though I apologize for not commenting much. I'm in the process of packing up to move and oy.... Don't even get me started.

Anyway, you're already on your way as I write this, but crossing my fingers that it turns out to be an awesome long weekend for you, all the way around!!!

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

Perfectly understandable---you've got a LOT on your mind right now. I hope the move is going well, and that the new locale is the starting point of happier times.

I'm getting ready to start posting about the weekend, although that may take more then one post, because OMG, it was a very FULL three days. Wow.

There's no place like home!