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My second ficathon challenge went up today. The usual shameless self-pimpage ensues:
http://community.livejournal.com/duerbp/8585.html
I'm not sure what it is about Altarboy!Chase that kinks me so; I've never been Catholic in this lifetime (though a couple of the past ones are up for discussion). Somehow, there's something about a well-written fic that shows Chase's spiritual side that hooks me more than any amount of smut. (And I like smut!) Maybe because in RL, guys who have sex on their minds are everywhere, but a guy with a Soul is much more difficult to find.
Okay, maybe I've got my own issues about sex (not nearly enough!) and religion (way too much!) in my life...but I *am* distinguishing between religion (man-made dogma) and spirituality (being in touch with the Divine). Nine years in a parochial school as a child made me quite wary of religion, but seeking to follow a spiritual path is different from blindly swallowing an ecclesiastical party line. ("You must do X and only X---if you do Y or Z, you're going straight to Hell!") And I think---the tendril of an idea pokes its tender green shoot above the mental compost---Chase is in the same straights: he's let go the ideas he grew up with, and he's having to find out what *works* for him. I sort of covered that in Chasing the Past, but I didn't quite finish thinking it through. Or maybe I didn't connect that part of it to my own soul-searching; I was more fixed on the idea of learning the the universe/God dumps shit on everyone, but when you're young, you're sure you're getting the brunt of it. (Not so.)
My goodness, this has gotten a lot deeper than I planned when I sat down, but that's what back buttons are for....
http://community.livejournal.com/duerbp/8585.html
I'm not sure what it is about Altarboy!Chase that kinks me so; I've never been Catholic in this lifetime (though a couple of the past ones are up for discussion). Somehow, there's something about a well-written fic that shows Chase's spiritual side that hooks me more than any amount of smut. (And I like smut!) Maybe because in RL, guys who have sex on their minds are everywhere, but a guy with a Soul is much more difficult to find.
Okay, maybe I've got my own issues about sex (not nearly enough!) and religion (way too much!) in my life...but I *am* distinguishing between religion (man-made dogma) and spirituality (being in touch with the Divine). Nine years in a parochial school as a child made me quite wary of religion, but seeking to follow a spiritual path is different from blindly swallowing an ecclesiastical party line. ("You must do X and only X---if you do Y or Z, you're going straight to Hell!") And I think---the tendril of an idea pokes its tender green shoot above the mental compost---Chase is in the same straights: he's let go the ideas he grew up with, and he's having to find out what *works* for him. I sort of covered that in Chasing the Past, but I didn't quite finish thinking it through. Or maybe I didn't connect that part of it to my own soul-searching; I was more fixed on the idea of learning the the universe/God dumps shit on everyone, but when you're young, you're sure you're getting the brunt of it. (Not so.)
My goodness, this has gotten a lot deeper than I planned when I sat down, but that's what back buttons are for....
