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Per GK, Kat was admitted for observation and testing last night. It seems pretty clear that she's not going to be flying back tomorrow. I've been over to her place---the cats are alive and fed and I updated her neighbor, who's going to continue to look in on them.

I'm operating in a state of fugue. Thirty years of memories are at odds with the last year or so, and especially the last couple of months. The woman who taught me to drive a stick, who wrote in to the newspaper to correct the Roman numerals they used to advertise a sale, my long-standing lunch date who I could talk with for hours---that lady is gone. Right now in Oklahoma, there's a woman with her DNA and her fingerprints, but that's not HER. Wanting her to remain, like that, is selfishness on my part, and futile.

Cherish your loved ones, my friends. Not just because it's "Christmas time", but because you just don't know when time's up. Their time, or yours....

Thanks for your support.

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Date: 2009-12-11 05:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pwcorgigirl.livejournal.com
*gentle hug* I'm praying for peace, mercy and comfort for you all. And I know exactly what you mean about seeing who she was dwindle away. Sometimes when I visit my mother and she's asleep (as she mostly is these days), I whisper to her "It's okay to go now."

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Date: 2009-12-11 11:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
*nods, hugs back* It's hard for me not to feel guilty either way. I shouldn't WANT anyone to die, especially her, but I shouldn't want to her live like this.

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Date: 2009-12-11 05:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starhawk2005.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry, hon. *hugs you*

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Date: 2009-12-11 11:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
*hugs back* Thank you.

I hope you and the rest of the Starfamily have a lovely holiday season---just think, by next Christmas, Starbaby will be toddling and you'll have to put everything shiny-sparkly way up high. A hint: GK solved the problem by putting her tree and gifts INSIDE the playpen to keep it cordoned off from little hands.

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Date: 2009-12-12 10:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starhawk2005.livejournal.com
just think, by next Christmas, Starbaby will be toddling and you'll have to put everything shiny-sparkly way up high.

Indeed! Luckily the Menorah is pretty self-contained. *whew*

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Date: 2009-12-13 03:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
That's a plus....

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Date: 2009-12-11 10:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rivers-bend.livejournal.com
Oh, honey. I'm thinking of you so much. *hugs*

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Date: 2009-12-11 11:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
Thank you, sweetie. Someone else on my f'list lost her brother this morning, and I'm thinking about her. Happy time of year, my ass. *hugs back hard*

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Date: 2009-12-12 12:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majolika.livejournal.com
I'm sorry. I wish you well. And I do know what you are talking about, how it feels when people go away and leave behind their DNA and fingerprints. It hurts like hell.

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Date: 2009-12-12 01:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
One of the things that comforts me is knowing that I'm not the only one who's gone/is going through all this. Thanks for being here.

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Date: 2009-12-12 12:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cbtreks.livejournal.com
I'm sorry you're going through this. Hugs and prayers.

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Date: 2009-12-12 01:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
Both of which are very much appreciated. *hugs back*

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Date: 2009-12-12 02:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] socialhermit.livejournal.com
I just got all choked up, reading the emotion between your lines. I'm so, SO sorry. Wish there was something I could do.... :-(

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Date: 2009-12-12 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
Thanks sweetie. What's so hard is knowing that there's really nothing anyone can do. I'll be posting the latest shortly.

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Date: 2009-12-14 04:13 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] fufaraw
Nothing to offer but good thoughts and hugs. You have them all.

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Date: 2009-12-14 05:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanillafluffy.livejournal.com
For which I'm grateful---thanks!

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