Somber Saturday

[vanillafluffy]

It was cold last night. I didn't turn on the space heater, although I woke shivering before dawn and wished I had---but was too cold to get out from under the covers to do it. Dreamed about Susie...we had been to some scrapbooking sale, and she'd gotten a bunch of "theme" pages and she was talking about what pictures she was going to use them with. Bizarre, since that really wasn't the kind of crafting she was into.

Woke up cold and depressed. Added a long-sleeved pullover, which helped with the cold, but was freaking out about the house. My mom used to say, "A place for everything, and everything in its place", and I was looking around going, "Where? Where do I put that? Or that? All this STUFF, I don't even---!"

I did what any sensible person would do: I went back to bed and slept for another three hours.

I did not magically feel better when I woke up. More weird dreams...I had been given or rescued a little brown dachsund, and I was panic-stricken, because I knew I couldn't afford a dog. Also, he needed to be housebroken. Life or death, because I was staying with Mags Bennett (from Justified), and she was threatening to turn him into sausage if he crapped on her rug one more time. We were in an old house, recently inherited, that was all paneled in knotty-pine and the rooms ran together like a labyrinth.

Shifted some stuff around in the dining room---I swear, it never ends, I just DID the dining room, but of course, things come in from other areas while you work on them, or you set something down "just for a minute"---and pretty soon there's a fresh patch of clutter. Arrrgh!

Went back and forth, working out there, coming back here for a quick game of Staries...what snapped me out of my funk was looking at a slideshow of the quake/tsunami devastation in Japan. That prompted me to give myself a mental bitchslap. I'm worried about a few boxes and some piles of laundry? Pfft, that's nothing.

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[kukkurkurat.livejournal.com]

Japan freaked me out, too, although if something like that was going to happen anywhere, Japan WAS the best place as they have really trained themselves from the days the small kids can walk.
That being said... Noone needs a disaster like that. The deathtoll has been upped to 10.000 now, I think. Plus the simmering nuclear plants... It is horrific.
Your mother's saying is a good one but to reach that stage takes time. Just keep chipping off the bits from the piles and you will have that. *hugs*

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

The last I heard, someone said it would be miraculous if it was LESS than 10,000. Beaches were strewn with bodies, and many were feared swept out to sea. One article said they were running out of body bags, the local crematorium could only handle 18 bodies a day and were completely overwhelmed. No word of how they were trying to identify the bodies. And the nuclear plants---! It's all horrifying and depressing and it doesn't help that I'm of a morbid disposition anyway.
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[kukkurkurat.livejournal.com]

And as far as I have watched Jap-anime it revels in that kind of thing... Makes me wonder of the power of suggestion here.