Yes, no, maybe so?

[vanillafluffy]

Actor Christopher Plummer is 88 years old and just won his first Oscar, but I think after a certain point, some dreams are past their sell-by date. It's not a question of having a bucket list, it's a question of how attainable the goals on that list are.

Traveling west of the Mississippi? Do-able. Winning an Olympic medal in gymnastics, definitely not. I've missed the window of opportunity to become a prima ballerina or a grand opera singer or a rock goddess. On the other hand, look at Grandma Moses---I might still make it as an artist.

I'm questioning what I want, what I think I can do, where the fulcrum is between reality and wishful thinking. I have no desire to run a marathon or participate in a triathlon, but I'd like to be in better shape. But thinking about walking isn't productive; getting my fat ass in gear and actually going for a stroll does. Being a fabulous ballroom dancer requires lessons and a partner. I could always get instructional DVDs from the library, but without a partner, I'm shit out of luck. Meanwhile, I can still get DVDs for bellydance, which I don't need a partner for. (And which has always sounded like fun.)

I've spent thirty years dreaming of restoring an old car. I'm not completely clueless about automotive things, but all my hands-on experience dates to 1983, aside from things like replacing the battery and checking the fluids. I've driven enough crappy cars that I can usually make a guess about what's going on, but guessing wrong could be awfully expensive when we're talking about something vintage. I don't have tools, or a shop or---oh yeah, a project car. I have a feeling that unless I win the lottery PDQ, the sun is setting on this one, and that makes me sad.

What's left? Travel? Not with my current car---I won't even risk a trip to Miami, and that's only 200 miles each way. And the cost in general...when I have money, there are always More Important Things to do with it.

Now, I'm drawing a blank. What else do I want to do? And of those things, what are within my means? And if I say "I don't know", or "Nothing.", then what? If I feel that all my hopes and dreams are unattainable, then I'm just going through the motions, waiting to die. That's not a good place to be.

I need to contemplate this some more.

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Comments

[karaokegal.livejournal.com]

The one reason I'm still holding on to my journals from 1982-2003 (about the time I started my LJ) is because I have to believe that I am going to become a famous author and someone will need those journals to write my biography.

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

I've been a sporadic journaler since junior high, and they're all around here somewhere....

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[ang5fam.livejournal.com]

I used to take belly dancing lessons and we had a blast~ it works all of the middle muscles, too.
Don't know if I could handle it now but it was fun.
One thing I want to do is live long enough to see my grandchildren grow up~ that will satisfy me.
The rest is gravy!

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

The last time I tried bellydance was when "Shimmy" was on FITTV, but I was having shoulder issues at the time, so it didn't really work. Better luck this time, maybe.

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[thru-the-blinds.livejournal.com]

I've kept a journal (diary back then) since I was 8 years old. I still have every one of them and NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING TO DO WITH THEM, though they'd probably make a wonderful bonfire at this point!

One of my goals (as you know) is to make it to the Magic Kingdom - Florida or California, I'm not picky. It's attainable, but every time I start to think "maybe this year..." SHIT HAPPENS and, well, yeah. *sigh*

[vanillafluffy.livejournal.com]

If you could come down during the off-season, rooms in nearby Kissimmee are *really* cheap, like $40 a night or less. Off-season=October/November. I know she's got school, but it would be educational.