The Archaeology of Closets
Dec. 10th, 2006 06:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vanillafluffyI squee'd rather loudly a little while ago---I found an old** pair of jeans that's been MIA. I'd reluctantly come to accept that I MUST have purged them during one of my closet cleansings of the last couple years. They weren't where I remembered them being, but it's them, all right---size 28 Venezia stretch jeans. (Mind you, although I can get them ON, they don't actually FIT. Sitting is NOT an option.) Dark blue, denim-spandex blend, somewhat more snug than skin-tight....
However, when I consider my all-time highest weight, which was 50-something pounds more than what I currently weigh now, I'm encouraged. 'Cause, there were a few years there where I could not possibly have gotten into them at all, and didn't believe that I ever would again. I got rid of a lot of stuff around that time, some of which I dearly miss now, like a certain black knit skirt. The jeans were tucked away in a drawer, though, and didn't get recycled...and although they're tight, especially against my calves, they ARE long, and I'd like to be able to wear them.
There's also the matter of my other closet. In my hall bedroom, I have a closet filled with 22/24 clothes. Okay, maybe not filled, but I've got a nice little collection of outfits suitable for work or church, courtesy of my ex-'s mom (who raided a plus-size yard sale once upon a time and got me a stack of stuff---I passed most of it along during closet flings, because even then it was too small, but I kept a few things that I loved and couldn't bear to part with).
It would be so nice to wear some of that stuff. I've had it since...'03, if memory serves me. There are two perfectly sweet white cotton dresses that would be adorable summertime outfits, a tidy blue knit, an autumnal paisley suit, and a few other things. This prospect is a dual-edged sword, however, because for the first time in my life, I actually have a selection of clothes that suits me and my life and fits me as I am. I seem to have stabilized where I am right now, give or take about ten pounds.
On the other hand, being a 22/24 again would give me a LOT more fashion options, although like I said, my current wardrobe generally makes me happy. I could use a few pairs of pants that are long enough and not black, for instance. I can't make up my mind---should I give up on that closetful of stuff, which I may or may not ever wear?
I know I *should* exercise more than I do (because I don't, really, and haven't in a few years), and that doing that gets better results than dieting. I've been at that since I was 12, and enough already! I'm trying to eat more sanely, although moderation isn't something I'm good at....
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** Well over 10 years old. I got them at the LB that used to be in the Merritt Island mall, and that closed in '99---and I'd had them for a few years even then.
However, when I consider my all-time highest weight, which was 50-something pounds more than what I currently weigh now, I'm encouraged. 'Cause, there were a few years there where I could not possibly have gotten into them at all, and didn't believe that I ever would again. I got rid of a lot of stuff around that time, some of which I dearly miss now, like a certain black knit skirt. The jeans were tucked away in a drawer, though, and didn't get recycled...and although they're tight, especially against my calves, they ARE long, and I'd like to be able to wear them.
There's also the matter of my other closet. In my hall bedroom, I have a closet filled with 22/24 clothes. Okay, maybe not filled, but I've got a nice little collection of outfits suitable for work or church, courtesy of my ex-'s mom (who raided a plus-size yard sale once upon a time and got me a stack of stuff---I passed most of it along during closet flings, because even then it was too small, but I kept a few things that I loved and couldn't bear to part with).
It would be so nice to wear some of that stuff. I've had it since...'03, if memory serves me. There are two perfectly sweet white cotton dresses that would be adorable summertime outfits, a tidy blue knit, an autumnal paisley suit, and a few other things. This prospect is a dual-edged sword, however, because for the first time in my life, I actually have a selection of clothes that suits me and my life and fits me as I am. I seem to have stabilized where I am right now, give or take about ten pounds.
On the other hand, being a 22/24 again would give me a LOT more fashion options, although like I said, my current wardrobe generally makes me happy. I could use a few pairs of pants that are long enough and not black, for instance. I can't make up my mind---should I give up on that closetful of stuff, which I may or may not ever wear?
I know I *should* exercise more than I do (because I don't, really, and haven't in a few years), and that doing that gets better results than dieting. I've been at that since I was 12, and enough already! I'm trying to eat more sanely, although moderation isn't something I'm good at....
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** Well over 10 years old. I got them at the LB that used to be in the Merritt Island mall, and that closed in '99---and I'd had them for a few years even then.